Firstly, if you are confused by what churches are teaching, or by what you yourself read in the Bible, feel free to ask us questions and maybe we'll know the answer to clear up your confusion.
It is important to surround youself with Godly people. God created us to be social, and there is something about having Christian friends that can hold you up and encourage you. Often when you ask them for advice, they tell you the truth you need to hear even though you don't want to hear it, and that causes you to grow stronger in Christ.
Vice versa, surrounding yourself with the world will almost definately tear you down. You are continually fighting off things that are not of God, if not out loud, then in your mind. It's hard to not adopt their habits and the like.
God said to forsake not the assembling of yourselves together. I'm going to get a little controversial here by saying that this statement doesn't mean you have to attend church. It just means you need to get around Christian friends on a regular basis and worship God together and talk about Him together. You can do this through having a weekly Bible study of your closest friends. You can keep each other accountible and talk openly about what's going on in your life without fear of being ridiculed. A church is the preferred method, but if you can't find one at the moment, look for other ways to assemble together. Just don't give up.
We'll be praying for you.